Reasons why I choose to be single

1. I set my priorities straight.

Not that I’m saying those who are in a relationship don’t have priorities, I know a LOT of persons who are in a relationship but STILL ROCKS on every aspect of obligation and responsibilities in life, but I think what works for ME (just making clear that this is not for everyone), is to put last on my list, on when I would start dating or search for my to-be sweetheart. I still have to work on my career and dreams in life, I haven’t even started fulfilling my bucket list yet! I have plans for my family, and for myself. I have a lot to improve and to learn. About what? I don’t really know. But sometimes, when I think of it, I need to be ready. Prepared in a way that I know that I have already found myself, before I give it to another.

 

2. I am a contrasting Hopeless Romantic slash Old Lady

I am an old soul by heart, most of my relatives know that. A very conservative introvert, a shy-ish, sometimes moody girl from the city. I wear super long clothes and rarely wear revealing ones. I tend to stay in a lot, read books, and just eat, rarely going out. Finding a man for me is really hard. When a guy down the street winks at me, I scoff and roll my eyes. If he’s a hot guy, would I roll my eyes? I DON’T KNOW! If he’d be just a regular guy, I think I’ll just bow my head to pass. But sometimes, when its a near-ugly guy, I give them THE FINGER. LOL. But another part of me wants to approach them and wink back. I just simply can’t do it!! Sometimes, I think of all the novels I’ve read, I can’t help but imagine how I would meet my “the one”. But when I meet him, would I roll my eyes? Would I give him THE FINGER? Would I scoff at him? Or would I be able to finally have the courage to wink or to talk back and actually start a conversation that would lead us to the ringing bells at the church?

 

3. I am as scared as Fear in Inside Out

I’ve experienced falling in love. Butterflies in your stomach, that giddy feeling when you’re with him, the smile you can’t remove from your face. My days are always bright and never did a gloomy day pass. You always feel pretty, no, you always feel beautiful in his eyes. You don’t remember being sad, you just remember that you’re loved.
But I’ve also experienced being heartbroken. Your heart feels like stone. No, it feels like a balloon, wanting to get out of your chest and to fly away free. I’ve experienced sleepless nights, and nights where I just cry myself to sleep, hands in my mouth, making muffled sobs, making sure not to wake anyone up. I know how it feels to be love,everyone loves that feeling. But to be hurt again, and to be rejected, and to be left alone? I’m scared to go through that again.

 

4. I think Love seems overrated at times

I’ve read SOOOOO many articles about love, dating, relationships and other stuff, and maybe that’s why I’m writing about one too! Well, I’m writing about the absence of it in my life. What I fear is that, at times, I may not be truly in love. But, just taking too much of the IDEA, of being in love. I wouldn’t want to be in a relationship, just for the sake to say that I’M IN a relationship.

 

5. Lastly, no guy has ever attempted to break down my walls.

I’ve had certain flings from time to time, and much to my dismay, no guy has the courage and bravery to pursue me despite all the walls I’ve built. No one ever dared to go with me through my dreams and goals, never wanting to be a part of my bucket list, not having the nerve to meet my family. To be a man enough to face my father, kind enough to talk to my mother, and friendly enough for my siblings. No guy ever attempted to pursue the old lady inside of me, no one was calm enough when I was having my moody times. No one gambled to make me happy or to make me smile again, to return those butterflies in my stomach, making sure I wont feel scared again. No man risked his heart to fix mine. I’m not saying that no one is good enough for me, just that, no one tried.

And that is why, my lovelies, that is why I choose to be single.

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We can’t please everyone

Sometimes, thinking really stresses me out. At times I would like to sleep so much just so I could forget things. Like what happened at work today.

I mentioned that I work at a Service Center in a hotel, and primarily help guests out, (through them calling on the phone) with EVERYTHING. And I mean EVERYTHING. To have someone to clean up the room, or give them towels, or to have someone charge their phones, or to make their bed, to fix their clogged toilets, to ask for someone to babysit for them, I COULD GO ON ALL DAY. 

And on top of that, we also receive calls from outside people, inquiring about EVERYTHING! And I am not over acting, outside calls are the most funniest. From prices to booking rooms, or booking reservations at restaurants, or how to go to the airport, and how much time would it take, or if I would know who designed what the hell. Also we get calls from our colleagues, but I’ll leave that out cause mostly we just need help from each others’ departments.

So, you know how my job works.

Well, I got this caller a while ago and she was looking for one of the restaurants. AS protocol, WE SHOULD BE ASKING IF WE COULD ASSIST, CAUSE WE TAKE THE FREAKING RESERVATIONS.

Then, this woman is already calling me crazy and calling me names as I was asking for the details for her reservation! She did not even bothered to tell me at first that she already HAS a reservation, and already talked to someone! IF I KNEW, I WOULD HAVE CONNECTED THE CALL ALREADY AND NOT TALKED TO HER!!

I just felt REALLY BAD! I was just trying to help! But I got a hold of myself right away. I have a lot of other callers, who make me feel good. And who appreciates my help. I can’t think of her always, because there are a lot more other people who appreciates MY efforts. Ironically, I received another call, who was ALSO booking for a restaurant, and she thanked me endlessly. 

Now I feel good.

Welcome to my world

Yeah.. SO. I just created a blog, and I have no idea what I’ll do. Hopefully, I get followers, and maybe they’ll help me with how this works. Anyhow, here it goes. Let me take you to my world for a while.

I’m Danica, and you can call me Nics for short. Hmmm.. What do I need to tell? I live in the Philippines, living for 20 years and counting, and I work as a Service Center Agent in a hotel, and I work as a part time singer in my bathroom. I think I have regrets at some points of my life, like, why didn’t I thought of going to mermaid school, so I think it’s time I set my mind straight.

I have always been an introvert, and I love eating, especially when with my family. They’re the ones who give me hope, who make me laugh, and make me feel loved. Sometimes I wish I work from home, so that I could always  stay with them.

I dreamed of being a writer once, and I think maybe part of why I created this blog is for me to practice or enhance my thoughts and skills. Oh well. There’s no harm in trying.

I daydream a lot, and mostly overthink at times, and I must say that I am very sensitive to others, to the point of sometimes, I don’t think about myself. That’s the joy and pain of loving, isn’t it?

To be honest, I can’t think of any other things to write about, but let me update you overtime.

I hope you find my thoughts entertaining, and if not, well, can’t do anything about that. WE all have our OWN little thoughts in our heads.